towards heaven

towards heaven

i drew those moments,
both you and i shared,
my very first dog and barbie endowed by you,
my courage embossed by your praises,
my inheritance of your palm.

your pamper is forever,
your hugs ever warm,
your smile never leaves
your love lanterned me,
yours words engraved deep inside,

i treasured the tales you told,
all deep in my chest of memory,
the knowledge you stored,
instilled deep,
like water in crystal.

i know, i know,
your redundent love on this gem
will never fade,
i am never prouder than being your gem,
how blessed i am,
to be in your arms.

i missed the last ride,
before you departure,
something i deeply regret,
yet so glad ,
because you assured me of your destiny.

where HIS love will be coating you,
and all your pain refunded with joy,
serenaded by peace and beauty,
while protected from dark,
in this LAND where you belong.

ps: this poem is dedicated to my late grandpa

Reborn

reborn

As I stood and waited for you,
you've been walking ahead of me,
as I brought you along,
you've long forgotten me,
though I knew we will be apart,
I still believe in your words,
that to hold on to you.

you took my soul away,
and forgot all about it,
but now I come to claim my soul,
as I know you have gone for long.

I am here under the great thunder,
with all my might,
I wonder,
until I came upon this door of hope,
knowing you are there inside.
I let my hope and faith sink deep within,
and till I realized that you are too far apart.

I race for you from the back,
but you never stop,
once you did,
and shared my soul once again,
and walked with me,
then you've decided to leave,
and once again you took my soul.

here I am searching for my soul,
walking behind you,
and watching you far apart beyond,
as I chant in moonlight,
to bless your journey.

I am glad that you caught a glimpse of me,
and for that I thought of hope,
so I race to you again,
to realise that you are beyond touch,
and i decided not to wait nor stop,
it crushed me dead.

yet now I found another device,
that I stroll along,
no longer behind you,
and I realized how dense I was,
racing behind an illusion,
hoping to claim my soul from him.

now I am a newborn,
a new soul filled with memories,
keeping you in my heart and leave you there,
as I walk my way,
my path,
not trailing like a lost soul,
as I am who I am,
a newborn from the past.