charmed by an angel

i feel my heart-aches,
my tears streaming,
and my mind running,
i've never had this feeling before,
it is so special that i want to keep it,
if could forever,
if could i want to know if you are feeling the same,
even if you are, can we paint it together?
i am feeling so lost,

trying to decide...
trying to answer,
to a decision that does not lie between my palms,
to a question that i can never answer...

this feeling is both pain and joy,
a feeling that words can never describe,
it's like a charm...
and i am charmed..
by a person i believe that is my guardian angel,
a person that i feel safe with..

is he feeling the same,
i want to know,
but if his answer trades for him,
i'd rather not know...
cause i can't afford to lose him..

yet i can't tell him how i feel...
as it will lead me to losing him..
sometimes i feel like a fool waiting here,
not knowing why...
but as i want to let go,
i'll hold on tighter...

i've never hold on for this long,
i am charmed...