only ours

i would have waited for you,
but it was ripped before me,
'coz the first cut is the deepest,
like a thunder that struck,
it brought destruction to my soul,
yet nurtured my heart,
i'll try to hold on once again,
but sometimes what is done is done,
it cannot be brought back to the past,
it would never be the same again,
i still get carried to you once in awhile,
but what does that mean?
i swore beneath my heart,
that i will not turn back to you,
but can i keep the oath that i swore upon myself?
our fate will decide it all....